I need a beat!
Johann Strauss Sr. “Radetzky March” performed by Vienna Philharmonic at new years concert 2011. Not normally my most favorite music.
Colonel John “Hannibal” Smith from the A Team (you need to be my age to know the A Team) said: “I love it when a plan comes together.”
Day 60 of lockdown, and I love it when a plan comes together, although it was not a plan. It is 59 days of a journal that comes together on day 60.
I feel a lot of things this morning.
I feel grateful for what I have and that I have come to day 60 in a good condition. I feel grateful for many other people who can say the same. AND I feel sad for the people who lost jobs and businesses or who are working short time, the people who are now looking to somebody else for food. AND I feel at a total loss when I consider seriously sick people who are going to lose their medical aid on 1 June because they cannot afford the premiums. They will have to face huge medical bills without any turnover for more than 60 days, I know at least one person like this. When I think of this, I feel numb, I simply do not know what you do in a case like that! (Read The Power of AND again).
On Day 2 I wrote about this day! The day that I will come out of lockdown. Although we are not there yet, I can see and feel it.
The thing about hiking is the reward. Take my word, it is hard work to climb up to Arangieskop. For more than 11km you are climbing up a very steep mountain. When you look ahead you see the mountain. If you look up, you see the trail winding up, ever higher. When you turn around, you look out over the valley. That is when you can see your progress and the big picture unfolds.
It is only when you stand beacon-top on Arangieskop, that you can really see. That is the 360-view. Robertson, Ashton, Worcester, Montague, Bluepoint peak. Montague Valley.
Day 60, we are not at the top yet, I can see the progress and at this stage it is the devastation on a personal level that I begin to see more clearly. I cannot help but wonder if we will ever live with confidence again? At the same time, I can see that the technology driven future was telescoped into the present. As always, one person’s loss is another’s gain. We will have to adapt.
Let me lighten up with a humorous story. When I was at University, they one holiday wanted us to clear out our rooms. It sounds OK, but where do I go with all my clothes, books, and everything else a young man collects? We made a plan. We send a rumour around that we keep pet snakes in the room. Hey, we were students and students do funny things!
I go to the laundry to get new bedding. The personnel look at me with huge eyes. I am interrogated about our “pet.” What snake is it? Does it have a name? Is it venomous? (Yes, it is Kosie and we take it to harvest the venom every second week, so towards the end of the holiday it will be extremely dangerous.) You can imagine those eyes!
My roommate decided that it is more responsible to be honest, so he went back and explained that it is all a joke.
A few months later I sat studying and saw the laundry lady coming in for inspection. Behind the door was a chair. Under the chair a bicycle tube. She saw the tube and jumped back. Then she saw my smile and said: “I have not forgotten about your snake story. I don’t trust this business.”
I think for many years to come we will remember the lockdown and its effects. We will not “trust this business” again soon. It is not all bad if we adapt our lifestyles. But if it starts ruling our lives, we have really lost.
Indeed, all life is inter-related, inter-dependent. Even though I can still pay my medical aid, that person not able to pay his medical aid, is threatening me, too. That is how it works – we need many people to pay so we can all benefit.
Lastly, I can be pro-isolation and think we are going into stage 3 two weeks too late. I can appreciate the preparations lockdown afforded us and be upset about petty rules that make no sense. I can support continue vigilance and isolation and be worried that there is a very socialist odour coming from the people at the top.
Day 60 – full circle? No, we have a distance to go. But I can see progress and I can see that journaling was a good thing! Day 60 – it is coming together.
“When it hurts—observe. Life is trying to teach you something.”
“Some days you will feel like the ocean. Some days you will feel like you are drowning in it.”